God Save Me

I have no idea who wrote this, but when I read it I thought someone was reading my soul:

God Save Me

God save me.
Take me away from the pain.
I'm losing my faith.
My life. My vision. My passion.
There's no compassion.
This pain is forever lasting.
I'm fasting,
Trying to find grace.
Get my mind out of this place.
My soul cries out.
I want to scream.
Trying to get redeemed.
The devil is in disguise,
Being fake, and trying to act wise.
All his lies.
Trying to tempt,
As he pretends.
He is picking at my brain.
Straight driving me insane.
I'm going crazy.
Trying not to let him phase me.
Look him in the eyes,
I see the hate.
I look to the Light,
I see true praise.
Please, Lord, let this be a phase.
Make him go away.
I want him to decay.
Please make him fade.
I can't take it any more.
My heart I pour,
As I'm trying to ignore.
He is coming at me hard core.
Worse than before.
Lord save me.
Embrace me.
I have faith in Thee.
Come on, Jesus,
Set me free.
My soul pleads.
I beg Thee,
For you are my trustee.
I count on Thee.

Everything is a Manifestation of God

If I could simply act in the best interest of others and those others could do the same, the small things wouldn't exist and the big things would be more tolerable. So, why is this fundamentally simple theory not easily carried out? Is it human nature for us to step on others to get to "the top"? Could it simply be survival of the fittest? What exactly is "the top"? Is it the car? The house? The job? The trophy wife/husband?

I think about my friends that have passed. I remember who they were. Just them. I have to stop and think for a minute to recall what they did for a living. I can't call to mind what most of them drove. I just remember the people they were and what they meant to me. So, what is the point to this struggle for notoriety, to be ""the best"?
I don't want to work more, so that I can make more money. I want to get to know the people I love better. I want to build more memories that we will always look back on, even after we have lost touch. I want to really enjoy my daydreams. I want to walk down the street holding hands, smiling at the old couple that I hope we may one day be. I want to live a truly spiritual life. I want to become aware of God's presence and purpose in everything. I simply want to be calm, free from worry, at peace.