I feel caged today

I have returned to this blog 5 times today. Every time I start to type, all that comes out is a spew of anger and sickness. So, I close the window and wait to calm down. I am as calm as I have been all day. Despite a meeting and crying to a friend over the phone - I still want to eat someone's fucking face like a zombie in a horror film. I question if sobriety is possible today.